We all live such busy lives. It’s a rare thing to find myself sitting in silence and solitude – to clear my mind and just be in the presence of God. Every summer at camp we have a retreat of silence. This is a time when we collectively fast and sit in silence. Being an extravert, I love to be around people all the time, but sometimes I forget the importance of personal reflection.
“For man does not live on bread alone.” Fasting is a way for me to really focus on God. To rely on Him to bead my bread – my substance. God is the reason for my existence. The reason why I live and breath everyday. I realize that my life doesn’t always reflect that. He is the giver of life – not only physically but also spiritually.
Looking around at God’s creation makes me realize His power and greatness. The past few conversations among all of us staff have been about the wrath and the discipline of God. I was feeling incredibly down. While God IS a fair and just God, I had forgotten that He is also incomprehensibly loving and merciful. Reading ‘Crazy Love’ by Francis Chan, during the retreat of silence was a much needed reminder of this. God is good. God is righteous. God is love, and His love for us is crazy.
Francis Chan writes, ‘We are slow to listen, quick to speak and quick to become angry.’ [so true!] He then goes on to say, “The wise man comes to God without saying a word and stands in awe of Him.” I can honestly say that I personally do not do this nearly enough. It is rare times like these that I actually sit and admire the greatness of our God. God says to us, be still. This is my goal for the coming months – to spend time in solitude + silence. To listen to Him speak.
Your glory is so beautiful.
I fall into my knees in awe,
And the heart beat of my life,
Is to worship in your light.
Your glory is so beautiful. (Your Glory, by All Sons and Daughters)